Sunday, July 17, 2016

Justin - Soul Sestina


About the writing

I struggled with this both with time to write and with concept. I settled on this idea of the soul expressing itself in art which stemmed from the idea that we are made in the image of the creator. I then balanced “negative” or painful line ending words with “positive” or creative, artistic words.

This allowed the changing meaning through context to be a bit more natural.

I almost redid the martyr stanza. Part of me thinks the idea doesn’t belong here, but the other part of me thinks that the tying of the martyr to the artists is so natural there should be no consideration of removing it.

I like the form. I feel like if I wrote two or three of these it would become natural and finding the balance of voice would be easier. For my first sestina, I’m quite happy.

*no punctuation* 

The Voice of the Soul

From the soul in mourning do I weep
Heeding the dirge the beating heart does sing
Each beat a gush of life outpouring bleed
Each note accented by a shattered cry
The world obscured by harsh black brush stroked paint
In sorrow requiems all that’s left to write

From the soul the poet lyrics write
Emotions through the ink of letters weep
A picture in the chosen verbiage paint
A silent song printed for others to sing
Through careful form he tames his feral cry
In measured words he lets the passion bleed

From the soul the martyr zealous bleed
And know that the historians may write
The righteousness or frailty of their cry
And whether any would at their grave weep
Will we the hymns that they have left us sing
Will we their portraits in the chapel paint

From the soul the artist pictures paint
Passion from palette and his brushes bleed
A hymn to creation by oil and canvas sing
A psalm to the creator by gentle brushstrokes write
Joy in drops of canary yellow weep
Sorrow in streaks of a cerulean cry

From the soul the wordless sorrows cry
The sound that Munch captured in his paint
Too broken to curse too angry to weep
The scream is all that’s left to out bleed
Formed in letters not yet designed to write
Tuneless song of sorrow no voice can sing

From the soul the singers their song sing
In time giving form to sorrows cry
Finding a way the wordless thoughts to write
In tune and glorious beauty sorrow paint
So on the listening ears the voices bleed
Together singer and hearer in chorus weep

Singing the soul seeks out its joy to paint
Crying crimson tears, sorrow on the canvas I bleed
I weep the words in ink my poem to write

Friday, July 15, 2016

Jason - Soul


On the writing

This week featured a kind of poem I had never written before, a sestina. This poetry of this work in using the same six words to end the lines in a set pattern. This lead to a poetry which has a heavy dialog or prose feel to it. The topic this week was the soul. So, I attempted to use this kind of repetitive poetry style to talk about my developing understanding the soul.

Family Divine

I once worked the soil of my imagination. I dragged mud into the house of the divine,
My small fingers pushing green seeds of fantasy. I devoted my being,
Into ethereal dreams of dragons and magic. A shallow deceptive veil,
Drawing a cartoon reality where pain is temporary and our bodies immortal.
The girl whose Daddy suddenly died in my elementary school, forced me to glimpse,
Something which shocked. Her tears caused me to hold my breath.

The playground felt claustrophobic. Watching her draw breath,
Was like flicking my fingers through a flame, tentatively touching the divine.
I could feel the electricity, the awareness of this other kind of being,
That me, inside of me, that vapor revealed by drawing the veil.
A new, dark, idea had been planted. The death of my immortal.
As the flesh fell away, it left something else, something fleeting to glimpse.

Floating dust in my Grandmother’s window, illuminated by the glimpse,
Of the vast sky. Invisible currents that danced with her grace, her breath.
She was a mystery and transparent, silently walking as something divine,
Perfected now, by the youth of my memories of her being.
Warmed donuts and ghost stories. Hiding in the apple tree or behind the curtain veil.
Sadness and fear, loss and despair had no place there. She lived immortal.

Those crystalline thoughts carry dark baggage. The painful, truth immortal,
On yellow cancer and final visits. I kept my distance, not wanting to glimpse,
The struggle for life, for humanity, to take the very next incomplete breath.
With hurt eyes and parched lips the illusion released the real divine.
It wasn’t her slightly frame or loving embrace that defined her. Her being,
Was released when those things were lost to us, when she pierced the veil.

The full church churned with craning necks hoping to see her white lace or veil,
And I, flanked by black and purple, thought of love and a binding of souls immortal.
Then suddenly, her hand was in mine, my vision rises to her glittering blue eyes. I glimpse,
A future of children and shared dreams. Of heads on chests listening to heartbeats and breath.
I cherished that moment she accepted new life. Her long surrender to the divine,
Which made this a forever love. A promise fulfilled. A fusion of our inner beings.

That love, that promise, holds me even today in this lonely state of being.
My heavy head fell to her chest. I wanted my tears to wake her, to cause a stir beneath the veil,
But she was still. So still. That spark that was the her, insider of her, the immortal,
Spirit had left. I lay severed. Bound by my heart and separated by my life. I had glimpsed,
A bit of heaven, in her laugh, in her arms, in her fantasies. But she was made of God’s breath,
So shed the limitations of her flesh and flew away, at his calling, to the divine.

The jagged memories break my being and mold my thoughts, giving a hopeful glimpse,
Through that celestial veil until, at last, I have no more breath.
Then my exhaled spirit, that freed immortal, will seek the family divine.

Tuesday, July 12, 2016

Failure - Jason

On the writing:

This week is the start of a story with the topic of failure.  So, I developed a story about a man in the midst of failure who discovers and unexpected way out.  I think in the longer version this beginning might even need to be added to, the pacing still feels a little rushed to me.  Anyway, I hope you enjoy it.

Thorn of the Rose

“The thorn of the Rose,” the cheaply printed half sheet had called me. It was not the first sling or arrow I had suffered, but this was not some clumsily tossed poison apple. Today the comment hit the mark. I had been playing second to Athelwold for years, which meant without my brother’s support I would not have had enough grain to feed my family. I could bear it no more. I read the words and they burned into my brain. I didn’t just see the letters. I saw the disgust on the wife of my brother’s face as he handed me that which he had earned. I heard the jeers of the crowd. I hated what had become of me. The stage had devoured me.

It did not start that way. I was a man of promise, with patrons and reporters who loved me. "Pleasing to the eye," some said. "You would pay to hear him read you a lottery ticket," said another. I was expected to be the leading man of my generation. That was all before Athelwold. He was taller. His voice was better. His shadow, it seemed, was too deep for me to get out of. Between the two of us, he was the one they loved. His patrons made sure he wanted for nothing. Even I loved him more than myself. The damning comparisons were harder to take because they were true. As he grew, I shrank.

My weakness, though, was not in my thoughts alone. Two months ago the coughs began. At first I thought I had some common ailment, but soon they became fits of sputtering. I would take a tonic before hitting the stage, to help hold back the choking, but at as I removed my costume from the final scene, the fits would start again. It did not get better. In fact, it got worse. Soon the tonic would not help and I would have hard coughs in the middle of a scene. I would have to constantly carry a handkerchief with me, to cover my facial contortions and keep any expectorant from getting away. My body was turning on me, too. It was the just the day before that awful half sheet when speckles of red first appeared on the white cloth I held in my hand. This was not an illness for a time, this was the one to take me. This was the conclusion to a morality. Every cough was a reminder that I would soon leave my my wife and children. I would leave them with nothing.

It was this morning when I saw Gregor mixing the tonic, from common items. In weeks past I had seen the pile of coins. I knew how much there was to be made, but from these bits of nothing? My mind raced. I knew what needed to be done.

He was not selling some magical formula to fix what I had, it was probably the spirits which had initially calmed my cough and nothing more. Gregor was selling hope. I could do that. I could give hope to the hopeless. If the stage had taught me anything it was that it is easy to make happy an audience who wants to believe you will make them happy. There is a spell which is cast when you offer what people want. Once they believe in you, the mistakes will be forgiven.

If Gregor was selling health, I would sell prosperity. The people here wanted that, they needed that. I would let people onto the ground floor of a new Arabian country. I would sell to them rights to develop, to mine, to farm, plots of desirable property. I would show them how the value was soaring and sell travel plans to go visit. Sure it would not exist, but could you really put a price on the hope I would give to my friends and neighbors?

What I didn't know, as I wrote these words, is sometimes success can be just as difficult as failure.-

Monday, July 11, 2016

Justin - Failure Short Story Intro


About the Writing

This took some time. Like a year. I’ve been playing with this idea for about that long but did not put anything into writing until this assignment. Now the topic was supposed to be about failure; this is more a perspective on failure as a matter of varying expectations. One might be very successful from the own point of view, but a failure from another’s viewpoint. It might be a skirting of the topic or of the topic as I had first thought of it, but I’ll allow it.

The form was supposed to be a short story introduction. This might be something larger than a short story, but strictly speaking, until the rest of the story is written, that can’t be said. Continuing the story, I would likely break this into two parts and expand both into a prologue and first chapter.

Am I “this is final draft” happy? No, but I like it and I am really happy with the progress after a long time toying with it though.

Let me know what you think. I hope you enjoy it.

The Hunter

Anyone that would have noticed James MacDougal sitting on a bench on the Ogden platform of the Frontrunner commuter train would have thought he was either homeless or some type of cosplayer heading to Fantasy Con. He was enveloped in a gray robe buttoned from just below his throat to mid-thigh where it opened over his legs and fell to the pavement. His pants were of the same material and tucked into calf-high, leather boots. He sat hunched forward, his elbows on his knees and his hands resting left over right on the silver wolf head pommel of a walking stick. His face was hidden in the shadow of the floppy, wide brim of a hat, also made of the same dark gray. Though he was there under the pretense of business, his heart was not in the task set before him. He had boarded the first northbound train out of Salt Lake City this morning and had not left the bench in the four hours since arriving in Ogden. He should have been watching around him, but he was completely inside his own head.

It had started with a meeting two months ago; James MacDougall was called to the Regional United Orders of Magic offices. The UOM is divided both geographically and functionally. There are nine primary disciplines or Orders. These Orders are divided into three groups called Wings. MacDougall’s Wing, the Keepers, consists of Gardeners, Healers, and Hunters; he is a Hunter. Geographically there are precincts, districts, regions, and areas which answer to the global command or UOM Glo.Com. MacDougall’s region was relatively small covering a portion of the western United States and Canada. He typically operated out of the Salt Lake valley, but the offices of North America West, Regional Command, or UOM NAW Reg.Com. is in northern Nevada, safely hidden in the middle of nowhere. The trip was short and only difficult because he knew he was not going to like what was said. He had been tipped off by four words in the summons: “don’t worry; nothing serious.”

When he arrived at the UOM NAW Reg.Com. building, he was immediately asked to follow a young administrator down a long corridor. Everyone he saw at the office complex was in there business version of approved robes: suits with jackets and slacks or skirts in color denoting the order of the wizard and a matching cloak. MacDougall’s was the Hunters’ dull gray, bordering on military in both cut and fabric. On the right breast of each jacket were white rectangles approximately five inches long and two high. Vertical lines spaced at half inch intervals were filled with color based on discipline mastery certified by the various orders. Border braiding denoted one of three ranks within one’s order: a braid of the order’s color for an apprentice, a black braid for a wizard, and black braid with an added line running horizontally through the center, behind the mastery marks denoted a master wizard. Each order had its own bylaws that marked the requirements for advancement, but the UOM only allowed master wizards to vote in elections or hold command or administrative positions within the structure with other requirements in place dependent on geographical level and station. The center line could have other colors or symbols added depending on UOM office, but the standard for a master wizard was black.

MacDougall had always found it odd that the other orders, far less military in operation than the Hunters, might concede to such a mark. Nonetheless, it was useful in making quick evaluations of a wizard upon first introductions. Knowing a bit about the other’s experience and knowledge base at a glance allows a quick understanding of others view of the world. It was as if they had a label declaring what languages they spoke.

At the end of the corridor, they came to a door with a plaque:

United Orders of Magic

North America West, Regional Commander

Robert P. Sutherland

Beneath the writing was the white rectangle showing Sutherland’s masteries; no gray stripe from the Hunters or yellow from the Benders, the other seven were filled in. The middle mastery mark was indigo meaning he was of the Scribes order of the Protectors wing. The black master wizard line was edged in silver marking him as a UOM Regional Commander.

            As the administrator ushering MacDougall knocked on door, James looked at his own rectangle. It was unique in the wizarding world: black braid around white field, all nine colors, filled but no black center line. He was a master wizard, but not a Master Wizard; a master Hunter but not a Master Hunter.

Granted entrance, he found the UOM Regional Commander in the indigo robes of a Scribe seated behind an expansive desk that was bare but for a few sheets of paper. Funny for a Scribe James thought. In chairs facing the desk MacDougall could see a wizard in the leafy green robes of a Gardener and another in the same gray that James wore himself. These would be the regional heads of his wing and order respectively. They stood and turned towards him as he entered. He recognized Carol Johnson, NAW Regional Chief, Keeper Wing and Finn Williams, NAW Regional Chief, Order of Hunters.

“Chief Johnson, Chief Williams” MacDougall nodded to the two chiefs whom he knew well. “And you must be Regional Commander Sutherland” he said to the man rising from behind the desk.         

“Good to see you Hunter MacDougal. This is a semi-official meeting so I’d like to keep it casual. Please, call me Bob instead of that Regional Commander nonsense?”

            “Okay, Bob. Does that go for Carol and Finn as well?” This received a bit of a smile from the Keeper Chief, but Finn Williams, tight-lipped, would not meet MacDougall’s eyes.

            “Of course, of course; please have a seat. What do you like to be called? I hear some people call you Wolf but how about James? Or is it Jim or Jimmy?”

            “James is fine or Jim or Mack; no one living calls me Jimmy.”

            “I understand. My mother used to call me Robby, drove me crazy. Mack, huh? Alright, Mack it is. Mack, we have a problem. I’m going to let Finn start off. But like I said, this is semi-official; it’s not a discipline tribunal so relax.”

            “No an official tribunal would require at least one ranking member outside of my chain of command. But if this is serious enough to warrant regional review, a tribunal can’t be far behind.”

            “Let’s be candid, that’s what we’re trying to avoid here.”

            “If I may, Bob,” Finn interjected, “the reason this is regional is my fault. Wolf, we’re having major trouble around here, the Hunters I mean. We need more people to cover the activity. The precincts are asking the districts for help. The districts are asking me. I tried to cover the gaps with some creative planning, but I finally had to take it up the ladder. Wolf, they didn’t come back with reinforcements. They said as long as we had a fully trained Hunter in our region who refuses to take an apprentice, we get nothing.”

“Refuse is harsh; I haven’t found a proper prospect.”

“They’re not interested in reasons. They said that you should have produced three apprentices by now. They said we’re coddling you.”

            “I’ve been busy, Finn. You know that. I work for several precincts and consult with multiple orders where assignments overlap. It’s not like I’m not pulling weight.”

            “James, no one thinks you’re not doing your part” the Carol Williams said putting her hand on his arm. “You need to recognize we’re your friends. You’ve known Finn and me for a long time. We’re on your side. We’re just the messengers here.”

            “So what the area chiefs have decided that the middle of a crisis is the time to start playing hardball with those of us that get stuff done?”

            The two chiefs flanking MacDougal looked at Bob Sutherland. “Worse than that, Mack. This came from GloCom.”

            “What does Global Command care about this?”

            “We’re not sure” Finn said “but listen, when I asked for reinforcements, I didn’t get the standard ‘let’s see what we can do’ or ‘we’ll look into it’ their response pointing at you was immediate. I think they were waiting for the request. They expected it.”

            “Mack, we Scribes don’t respond to records requests in any hurry. Shoot, you know how we work. Most of our requests come from the Travelers and they don’t care about time anyway. This had to have been planned. I can’t think of another explanation. They knew to the day how far you were out of regulations the moment they were asked.”

            “The bottom line is I need to restrict your active work” Finn said looking down at the floor. “It kills me doing this because it really puts us in a bind right now and you’re the best we have, but if you don’t get a recruit within two months, well…”

            “Well, then it will be a tribunal, and it won’t be in this office. We haven’t worked together before, Mack, but these two people sitting next to you came to me when they thought you were being set up. To hear them talk you would think you had trained Merlin. We don’t need you to train the next Merlin, but we do need you to find someone.”

            “Anything we can do, James. Just ask.”



            A month later, he had still not found a prospect. Finn came to see him and took him completely off of field work; finding a prospective apprentice was now his full time occupation. The day after the two month deadline expired, he received a summons to appear before a tribunal at Global Command in outside of Edinburgh. The tribunal was tomorrow and although he had come to Ogden hoping to spot the prospect that he had not found in Salt Lake, he just was not there. His career was at stake; someone with political power in the United Orders wanted to end it.

            His reflection was broken when he became suddenly aware that his view was now blocked by a white cotton skirt of a woman standing directly in front of him.

            “Hello Jimmy.”

            No one living calls me Jimmy.

            He looked up and met a pair of emerald eyes on a face that had not aged a day in fifty years.
            “Hello Sis.”

Saturday, July 2, 2016

Justin - Vacation


About the writing
This was really hard for me. Not because of the form but because of the subject. Vacation. I just finished a month of insanity at work where the wishful thought was to make it home before dark. The thought of time off was far distant. Fortunately, single word topics always allow broad interpretation. I took advantage of that. I also took advantage of the two week break and spread out the finish of this.
The form is something I was excited about and hopefully we do it again. Pantoums are a fifteenth century Malaysian form. Each line is used twice in a specific pattern. Meter and rhyme structure is unspecified.

Vacation
Taking vacation in fifteen minute chunks

Unable to leave life’s daily grind for now

I find escape in the pages of a book

Walking distant streets with fictional friends



Unable to leave life’s daily grind for now

I join adventures I may never know

Walking distant streets with fictional friends

Heart racing as danger rears its head



I join adventures I may never know

Running narrow alleys in pursuit

Heart racing as danger rears its head

Seeking clues to help me catch my prey



Running narrow alleys in pursuit

Looking for the spine upon the shelf

Seeking clues to help me catch my prey

Seeing the title is always a small joy



Looking for the spine upon the shelf

I find escape in the pages of a book

Seeing the title is always a small joy

Taking vacation in fifteen minute chunks